As we all continue our gradual emergence from the chrysalis of Ascension, I’m now noticing stages in the development of my ability to express love. In the early years of my marriage, it was as if I had a hole in my heart. I couldn’t generate love for life or money. My wife hung in …
I’ve decided to write about my near-death-experience because I’ve been reading ‘Transformed by the Light” by Cherie Sutherland, which is about her research into Australian Near Death Experiences and the aftereffects they have on people who experience them. I found much in common with my own experience and I believe it is informative in understanding my work.
I had the NDE in 2000 after the Sydney Olympics. At that time I was already on a spiritual path. I already believed in reincarnation after an experience at the Alhambra in Spain in 1984. I experienced a past life in Yustaf I University in Granada.
I had a heart attack in the ocean at Palm Beach, Sydney. I was snorkelling with my friend Gail R. and we went into the water at the beach and swam out to the point I was dolphin kicking and it was a bit dirty with a small swell. Gail had taken a photo and we were swimming fairly close. I felt hot even though the water was cold. I decided to get out I seem to have come in at the pool onto the rocks and raised my arm to wave to her that I was OK, when I keeled over face first into the water.
There were a lot of people around on shore who saw me including a young girl, Grace B. who noticed I didn’t blow the water out of my snorkle and alerted lifesavers. Anthony G. says he was at the beach with his wife and child having never gone to the beach with a migraine head ache and arrived only 5 mins before. He’s a former policeman, now lawyer working for legal aid. Five other adults including surfing identity Bart B. got me out of the water and Anthony and Bart B. did CPR and rescusitation. When I spoke to Anthony later he said it was frightening how no-one knew what to do. He also said he’d brought his mother back and she didn’t thank him! This was because it was beautiful where she’d been and she didn’t want to come back. I thanked him and said I was brought back for a reason and it has something to do with planetary karma.
I was unconscious for 18 hours and they transferred me by helicopter to Prince of Wales Hospital. I didn’t need a stint because I recovered quickly and was out of hospital in 10 days. I remember the light and tunnel coming back I remember waking up with the knowledge I’d agreed to come back because I had work to do. I remember I was off with the dolphins and experienced the light and was with guides, including the one who brought me back but the details have escaped me. I seem to have been very busy with the Olympic events and then the Paralympics which were after. I was trying to sell the vehicle which I’d driven around Australia at the time, with some reservations. I was certainly asking how the universe arranged itself to save me from death. There were too many coincidences.
My friend Gail, who had been diving with me wondered what all the commotion was around the pool and was looking for me, when she saw me being taken by the paramedics. She said later I looked dead, was blue in the face and unconscious. She changed her career from a Law Librarian to a Psychologist, a rippling out effect of my NDE I believe.
Like most of the other respondents in the group surveyed, I was no longer interested in formal religions, I knew It was just so much different to what I’d learned as a baby RC. I no longer fitted that box.I had been doing some earth healing work in Homebush Bay for the Olympics and was to continue for the Paralympics, so had to recover quickly and get out of the city. I improved when I was able to move into my own space in the bus.
Despite my curiosity about why this had happened, I was not to explore using hypnosis, which I didn’t. I had Trager and acupuncture and reiki of course. When I went to heart specialist up in Qld, he told me I’d probably have another within 6 years, cheerful fellow. Well I didn’t and despite having a scare earlier this year, which has meant I now have a pace maker having got the message, I was to get an upgrade. Well not quite my idea of an upgrade, but I’m still here and I believe I’m protected for a reason that has to do with my greater Higher Self role, which I came here to do.
An increase in psychic phenomena is one of the outcomes of NDEs 71% experience clairvoyance or most kinds of precognitive flashes (86%) which they seem to take in their stride. While 49% who experience OBEs was harder to ignore. The desire to help others, included changes in life direction, and being more compassionate. There was an increased need for solitude, a higher self esteem and a decrease in concern for what others think of them. There was a strong sense of purpose in most of the people sampled. There were changes in relationships following the NDE, as the changes were often difficult for a partner to understand. Material success was less important. There was a greater interest in alternative therapies and a decrease in use of doctors. There was a change of interest towards spiritual seeking. There was a diminished interest in politics and a corresponding increased interest in social issues, something I experienced. Choices of lifestyle, such as drinking, smoking, alcohol, eating and prescription drugs, reflected greater respect for their bodies. The integration of the NDE takes time and some experience it faster than others. It helps if they can find a sympathetic ear to listen, particularly in the early stages. Inner spiritual work needs to be done in integrate the experience.
`Experiencers who follow a confirmatory trajectory are already accepting of psychic phenomena and death. For these people the NDE confirms already strongly held beliefs based on personal experience and intellectual exploration.”
This is the trajectory I believe I was on and it helped speed up the process.
A number of friends reported a change in me after the NDE. This is something, I don’t believe has been explored. Some thought it was a higher aspect of me, some thought it may have been a `walk-in’. I believe it was an expansion of my auric body into my Higher Self. There was some loss of memory about the past, things I hadn’t spoken of in years, I had forgotten, the gains far exceeded the losses.
Six months later I was diagnosed with Diabetes. Some said the NDE was the trigger. Since my father and both brothers have it also, I think it was inevitable, but I’m still living with it.