My Experience using Ho’oponopono

Charlotte: My Experience Using Ho’oponopono

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I’ve been a regular reader of this blog since its beginning, when it was calledThe 2012 Scenario. I met Steve and Kathleen on their 2014 West Coast Express trip through Northern California.

I connected on a heart level with them and knew we were all traveling similar paths. Not long after that I was introduced to the Hawaiian practice of Ho’oponopono by a yoga teacher. Kathleen also started writing articles about it on the blog.

Simply stated, the practice consists of four easy to remember phrases repeated by the practitioner to facilitate forgiveness and self-healing: “I am sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. I thank you.”

I read about it and tried using it, but it didn’t feel real to me until recently. I have never contributed my writing to a public blog, but feel prompted to share this experience. I hope it can be helpful for anyone struggling with this as I did.

Like many here, I have been consciously “clearing the decks for Ascension” for decades by releasing layer-by-layer all that no longer serves my highest good so that I may be of use. A few weeks ago a YouTube video on Ho’oponopono came into my feed which renewed my interest and I decided to try again, at a deeper level, for which I felt ready.

I was guided to commit to a month of regular practice. When unable to sit for extended meditation I simply used the phrases as I went about my day while interacting with others and especially when negative thoughts intruded. The words soon became a mantra to me. After about two weeks of this I set aside some time to meditate and go deeper with it.

Before each session I asked my Higher Self (I call her “BC,” short for “Big Charlotte”) to bring to my awareness any person or situation that needed healing, forgiveness and release. My stated intent was to free myself and anyone connected to me (which ends up being everyone) from past, present or future hurts caused by me, intentional or unintentional, across all Timelines. Tall order, right? I tend to like to keep things simple, but it felt necessary for me to be very explicit here, and sincere.

What happened over the next few days was miraculous for me. I was guided to be very gentle with myself and listen to my body. I started a routine of salt baths instead of a quick shower. I lit candles, set Pandora Radio to a healing sounds station and relaxed into a deep meditation. On the first day, once I reached that state I found myself standing at the edge of a gently running stream in the forest.

On the opposite bank there was a clearing at the edge that opened to a field. In that opening familiar people started showing up one by one. These were present-day friends and relatives. I said the words to each one and sent a Namaste blessing, after which they would step onto a small raft lit with candles and float away.

As they drifted downstream I could see the heart flame grow brighter and brighter until they went out of sight. It felt like hours had passed while I did this, but it all happened in about 15 minutes. I felt very light and peaceful, but sensed there was more to come.

On the second day I was glad I had enough time to do it again. I arrived again at the stream. This time I stood with my arms extended and hands open, willing to receive any more souls who wished to participate. Instead of one-by-one familiar faces, a crowd had gathered on the other side, uncountable. They started stepping forward in groups. I repeated the process, saying the words sincerely, even though I couldn’t see who they were.

The rafts on the water this time were large enough to hold many now, and in unison they would receive my words, step onto the raft and float downstream. As each group floated away the entire forest started to glow with the growing light. The crowd thinned and eventually it felt finished. Many tears flowed and I was sobbing by the end. I felt washed clean, inside and out, and thought it was done.

BC informed me that there was more to process. The third day more groups showed up, but I could see an end to the lines this time. I repeated the process until there were no more. I naively guessed it must be finished now, but BC had other plans. I remained open but decided to do it in a separate session. BC agreed.

On the fourth day I quickly dropped into a deep meditation. When I arrived at the shore the opening on the other side stayed empty. Confused, I asked BC what I needed to do. At that moment a golden glow surrounded me.

Actually, I was outside of my body and a Light Being was with me. I was instructed to continue the same process, only this time I was to direct it to my own heart. I wept deeply as I watched my own heart transform before me. As I repeated the mantra I was given a close-up view of my heart center.

It was locked up with a heavy-duty metal chain wound round and round my heart and up around my throat. I could only see tiny holes where my heart light peeped through. As I continued the process the chain started unwinding.

First my heart, then my throat. For a second I could see a little light shining through, only to realize that under the chain were leather straps tied tightly, but a little looser than the chain. I felt exhausted and wanted to stop, but the Being insisted I continue just a little longer.

As I repeated the words over and over I saw the straps start to pop off and open. A great relief came over me, but it was quickly replaced with panic. I felt naked and vulnerable, not safe. I told the Being I could not go out into the world like this. I just knew I’d be eaten alive. In a flash a set of beautiful feathered white wings cradled my heart.

My heart light glowed through. The wings were soft and comfortable and I felt I could relax. The last words I heard from the Being before I came back were, “A feather is enough.” I understood immediately that the feathers would filter what entered my heart but still allow the Light to shine through. It is no longer necessary to lock it up in a dungeon to be safe.

A week later a Ho’oponopono meditation came up on YouTube which I have found to be very useful for this phase of my practice. I realize loving and forgiving myself must be a priority for me to thrive. If you are interested, it was posted by Sandra Rolus and is titled “Ho’oponopono for Self love & Radical Forgiveness.”

An interesting thing happened when I used it. In all my years of meditation, whenever I was told to open my heart center during a guided meditation I could not seem to understand how to do it. I could never feel anything or even visualize it when asked. Now I know that I had it chained up so tight there was no way to do it.

Now that I’ve done the forgiveness work, my heart is cooperating. In the mentioned meditation Susan suggests to breathe in deeply and slowly, then open your heart, say the words and receive the healing.

To my surprise, when I got to the opening the heart part I got a clear vision of the white feathered wings opening gently as I chose to open my heart. When the forgiveness was received fully, the wings gently went back into place. I realized that as my heart continues to grow and change my wings will accommodate it without restraint.

Words seem inadequate to express the experience I had. The most profound lesson for me in all of this is that the healing of my own heart through forgiveness allows me to more easily and happily extend the forgiveness and healing to all.

Namaste, Light Family.



Need to Forgive Great!

Need to Forgive Great; Things to Forgive Difficult
July 16, 2019 By Steve Beckow

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I’d like to follow on from the Federation of Light’s request of all lightworkers to lead the way in forgiving everyone and everything. They said:

“May we … suggest you ‘Forgive’ in a general manner? Offer out the Energy of Forgiveness as A WHOLE … FOR ALL THAT HAS TAKEN PLACE … TO ALL THAT ARE IN NEED OF THIS LOVE … Perhaps do not focus on any one particular event … should it be that your ‘mind’ finds that too difficult, yet, as we say … Send out Loving Forgiveness … AS A WHOLE … TO THE WHOLE. …


Let me be tongue-in-cheek for a moment. Don’t get offended. I’m just joking.

If someone put a weapon to my head and told me, “Forgive everything or die!” what would I do? Very likely I’d forgive everything.

And, wow, everything connected with resentment would magically disappear from my body in a second!

Holding patterns in the musculature, ways of looking and gesturing, meaningless cliches would all now magically lift or be visible and probably sidestepped.

But it’d take something like staring death in the face for me to finally and completely “get off” resenting people.

Short of the threat of imminent death, there falls a range of territory more noticeably governed by our will, our choices.

Within this territory, we may make excuses about why we’re not forgiving, resolve to never forgive, create tales of disasters that happened when we forgave, etc., etc. Our choice not to forgive may be bolstered in a thousand ways.

And then we spread a layer of self-servingness over it all and cast the story of our unforgiving life in the best possible light, chipping away here and smoothing out there. This we then serve to others as the truth of the situation.

We do seem to need a reason! And a compelling reason where forgiveness is concerned.

In my fictional example, it took a weapon to my head to get me to drop all of my silliness and forgive.

Previously I might have forgiven because it stops a festering inside of me that doesn’t feel very good. But that may not be a reason compelling enough for society at large or even lightworkers at large to take up universal forgiveness.

The Federation of Light offers a more compelling reason and one that has the power to inspire us to action: Lightworkers are needed to mitigate the tailspin that people – and society – may feel when they see their celebrities and leaders falling in quick succession. We need to stop the tailspin our society is in by everyone forgiving.

By the way, this is going to be work for me. Not saying otherwise.

As lightworkers, we assist by teaching, modelling, and invoking forgiveness.

We need to buckle up to endure the coming flood of revelations. (2) After surviving, we then need to provide the teaching and modelling that the rest of society may require to recover from their shock without hanging the Illuminati from the nearest lamp posts, as George Bush Sr. feared.

It presents work for me, but I’m up for forgiving everyone and everything. And starting afresh. I won’t wait for the truth to be on the table and our true situation understood before beginning work on this one.

The Epstein Trial promises to reveal the truth, along with the various reports waiting to be declassified. And other trials allegedly underway. Before we drain the swamp, we’re in for a big storm.

The moment when we as a society will need to forgive the past – and present – fast approaches. And the circumstances that demand it couldn’t be more difficult to endure. But that is the job at hand for lightworkers – to come from forgiveness of everyone and everything in the face of heart-rending circumstances.


(1) “The Federation of Light through Blossom Goodchild, July 15, 2019 (Important Message),” July 15, 2019, at

(2) Buckle up = Ground ourselves, remain calm, explain to others (but not too much), etc.


Universal Mother’s New Year message

Universal Mother Mary’s New Year’s Message, Jan. 5, 2019

Greetings, I AM Mary. Greetings, I AM Maré [i.e., the Ocean of Love], Universal Mother, Mother of Hope, Mother of Change, Mother of One, Mother of you, Mother of all. Welcome my beloveds, ascending and ascended angels…welcome home…for you join Me this day in the Heart of One, in the 13th Octave, in the place and the state of reunion.

When last we spoke, just prior to this time you think of as Christmas, I have offered you a gift and it has been the gift of being reborn – in every sense of the word. No, not like dying but crawling back into my womb, into the Essence of One, the Essence of All, and reemerging refreshed, renewed, reborn…there are many ‘re’s’…reconstituted, rejuvenated.

Many of you have said “yes” and you have come to me and surprisingly, confusingly, and understandably, some have said “no” and some have not answered at all! And they have said “no”, or not answered because they did not believe in resurrection, they did not believe in rebirth, they did not believe in the potential of miracles, and they did not value themselves deeply and wholly enough to say “yes”.

Now, does this mean, in any way, shape, form, reality, dimension, or realm, that these ones are ignored or released? Of course not! We never do that. But what I wish to speak of is this new beginning that has confused some of you. Now, for some of you, this has become a major event and you have woken up on Christmas morning feeling bright and shiny and reborn.

But for the majority of each and every one of you, dear hearts, even though you have a long-standing love affair with events, you have embraced and entered into the process of rebirth. You have literally crawled back into my womb, settled upon my lap, cradled within my arms, and you have said, “Mother, I have yearned to be back with you. And I am tired, I am worn out, I am exhausted, so let me be home for a while.”

It is not that you have, in any way, shunned or abandoned your beautiful mission of fulfilling My Plan, and yours, upon this beautiful planet Gaia. But, you have come back, and I have welcomed you because you needed a break. So, for some of you, it has been a time of confusion… you’ve said, “Mother, I’ve said ‘yes’, and yet I am more tired, more exhausted, more immobile, more confused than ever.” And that, sweet ones, is because you have chosen and I have chosen to have this period of reconstruction…the brushing away the troubles and woes, the disappointments, and yes, even in some cases, the despair…and the renewal, the reintegration, the elevation of you.

This is the time of Epiphany…yes, what some, what many, think of as a religious event. But, what this occasion marks is, in fact, more gifts, the Gifts of the Magi, of which St. Germaine was one, Serapis Bey another, Sanat Kumara another. It was the marking and the honoring of the Christ Consciousness, of the love consciousness upon this planet.

So, what I offer thee this day, at the beginning of this New Year of 2019, is the gifts of hope, and trust, and forgiveness, for this is the retinue that you most deeply need in this beautiful array of the 13 Blessings and Virtues. Yes, you require Fortitude and Beauty and Compassion to sustain you, but in this moment and in this year, you need, and I give thee, hope, and trust, and forgiveness; for hope and trust, as you well know, are brothers and sisters, first cousins and family.

Hope is the ability to see beyond, to hold and to know Divine presence, both within your sacred self and in all things, all situations, all environments, no matter what. It is the ability to be on the earth, on the planet, but not of it and most certainly not of the chaos…that is still being cleared.

And trust is the impetus, the excitement, the joy to move forward, not merely to embody the Divine Qualities but to claim your birthright, to claim your ascension, to claim the truth of who you are, and to act accordingly, to live this life that you have come to live.

Yes, I have spoken to this channel…if you do not put yourself front and center first, then who are you putting first? And you say, “Oh Mother, I am putting you first!” I do not want to be first, dear heart. I wish, we wish, to walk alongside of thee, arm in arm, hand in hand, in the sacred union of our family. You are the wayshowers, you are the pathfinders, you are the pillars and the portals…you are this because of my faith and trust in each and every one of you. And that is why I have given you the gift of rebirth!

And yes, this year, this brand new year of 2019, yes, is a year of resolution and completion, but it is also a year of rebirth…of rebirth of you, of rebirth of humanity, a rebirth of ideation, of values, of societies, of institutions. The old is being swept away by my final waves of my Tsunami of Love…and this is My Plan. It does not mean that we abandon those who have said no, or maybe, or thanks but no thanks, but what it means, regardless of those who ignore, is the new paradigm emerges, anchors, is fully present. And it is not merely fully present because of our input, energies, downloads, teachings…it is fully present, beloved ones, because of you, because of your choices, your decisions, your actions, your interactions, your creations.

I have said to the channel as we have discussed Conscious Creation this week, that the history…you think of current history, and when I say current history I mean the last several thousand years…the history of humanity has been about ten percent creation into the physical realm. This is particularly true of love-holders, light-bearers. Ninety percent of what you do has been beautifully, magnificently, powerfully in the unseen realms and it is those creations in the unseen realms, which, at times, have been so frustrating to you, but it is those creations that have allowed this rebirth, this reemergence of humanity.

Now, what we do in this coming year and in this golden age is we begin to shift so that you become…let us give you a new nickname – the fifty percenters – so often that is looked on and referred to as an insult. Fifty percent of what you do will be creation in the physical reality of bringing forth and anchoring and building Nova Earth, in the physical, tangible, experiential realm that you can taste, smell, touch, experience.

Remember what I have said, “Love, in the human realm, is what you experience and what you express.” Now you are bringing into physicality so that you can experience it physically, so that you express it physically. The other fifty percent remains in the unseen realm and this is a new concept known as balance and this is the time of balance. And yes, you are tired sometimes and that is why you are being reborn. But this is the key, this is the key and this is what lies ahead.

And so my beloveds, my children, my angels, I fortify thee with the Gifts of the Magi, with the gifts of hope and trust and forgiveness…forgiveness of all, of self, of others seen and unseen. There is no room for injury and grudges, revenge, hatred, greed; there is only room in your hearts, in your love, in your life, for what brings you joy. And let me be very clear…what brings you joy ignites my heart and the heart of every legion throughout the omniverse! You are loved, you are cherished, you are valued, you are powerful, and I am with you, next to you.

Let us proceed in glee, excitement, and joy. Happy New Year. Farewell.

Channeled by Linda Dillon                                                                                                                                                                                                                      ©2019 Council of Love, Inc.

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Forgiveness is not approval

The Forgiveness Road: Eliminating Judgement
February 22, 2018 By Kathleen Mary Willis

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Shooters gunning down children, war, pedophilia, the opioid crisis — how do we forgive?

We know a place of balance is in detachment and attachment to the highest vision.

But what if the action is so heinous, we get caught in the wheel of judgement, anger, hatred, fear. . . ?

Archangel Michael, interviewed by Steve, February 12th on An Hour With An Angel told us:

“Forgiveness is not about liking everybody. It is about being the Love.” (1)

I’m feeling judgement for external patriarchal control, in the without, not the people, but the behaviour, the actions.

But as within, so without. . .

So what am I judging within?
Where is my own control within?
What am I afraid to forgive?
My own experiences
not of love?

Archangel Michael says we, as lightworkers, are forgiving “our not expressing and experiencing” ourselves “as Divine Perfection,” of “allowing” ourselves “that scenic detour to be less than:”

“What you are doing is you are taking the Mother’s and the Father’s Essence of Forgiveness. One of their Divine Expressions, and bringing it down. And anchoring that forgiveness, that sense of deep compassion and awareness of gentleness, kindness.

“Forgiveness is never permission other than permission to surrender.

“So, you are anchoring that. And in anchoring that you are beginning to feel and to know and experience the forgiveness of your sacred self.

“Your inclination may be, ‘I forgive myself for not being perfect,’ but that would be erroneous.

“What you are forgiving is your not expressing and experiencing yourself as Divine Perfection, of allowing yourself that scenic detour to be less than.

“And you look at that, and you let it go. You forgive it.

“Forgiveness has the ability of elimination: more organic change, the dissolving of what may have felt like a huge boulder, which you have experienced. and allowing it to dissolve.

“Then you take that, and in that you can begin to forgive externally. In the without as well.”

So I wrote down the internal and external things I judge/am here to forgive:

I judge/am here to forgive
my scenic detours,
over lifetimes.
I Am the Love

I judge/am here to forgive myself,
for not expressing and experiencing
my self as Divine Perfection
this life, many lifetimes.
I Am the Love

I judge/am here to forgive the people waging war, who rape,
are involved in pedophilia, trafficking, the opioid crisis.
I Am the Love

I judge/am here to forgive shooters gunning down school children.
I Am the Love

As lightworkers, Loveholders, gatekeepers, pillars,
forgiving ourselves within creates
change in the without;
as within, so without.

Archangel Michael says that heinous behaviour is not something to like:

“Now, let us go back. Do you think that when we or the Mother observe some heinous behaviour that she likes it? No. That she likes the person acting that way? No. But the Love for the Divine Expression is always there.

“So, it is not really about…it is almost, might I suggest today, insignificant whether you like or dislike an individual or a group of people. That is you, that is your personality. And when I say you, I mean all of you who are listening this night. That is your personal preferences based on your life experience, your many life experiences, your culture, your acclimatization to society or to institution. It is simply personal choice. Love overrides that.

“Let me repeat: Forgiveness is not permission.

“So, when you forgive yourself or, let us be very particular, when you are forgiving someone you dislike, you are not saying, ‘Let’s have dinner together’. You are not saying, ‘I have a spare room in my house, come and live with me.’ You are not saying, ‘Be my best friend.’

“The gift of forgiveness is to yourself. Because carrying around a burden of what you feel is injury, because that is really what it is about, is injury to your sacred self. So, that is why I suggest to you, I tell you, the forgiveness begins with yourself. And then you can move out to the outer realm as it were. But it has nothing to do with liking or disliking. And I am not suggesting to you (this is a good topic), that forgiveness eradicates boundaries.”

The gift of forgiveness is to me. . . in unity, connectedness, balance.

Archangel Michael reminds us again that forgiveness is never permission:

“Now, more than ever in this time of new beginning, in this process of creating, and co-creating Nova Earth, in this time of a unified grid, boundaries are more important than ever. Because as you are progressing what you are saying — passively, actively, silently, or in heart speaking — you are saying, ‘This is acceptable, and this is not acceptable. And invading my values, my heart, my Love, my sacred being is not acceptable.’

“As Yeshua has often said, and I will repeat, ‘Turn the other cheek,’ which is forgiveness, does not mean that you will allow that individual, or that group, or that energy to beat you up.

“That is not acceptable. And that is why we say, ‘Forgiveness is never permission.’ It is simply lightening your load, your burden. So, when you dig deeper, beloved, when you say, ‘I really am having trouble forgiving this or that person, and what will happen if I do extend an apology?’ And the apology does not always need to be in person, or even spoken. But what will happen?

“I ask of you. All of you. What are you afraid of? It comes back to where we have started this conversation. And it is that those that are reluctant and recalcitrant are in fear.”

From personal experience apologies are wondrous, whether one is asking or receiving, when guided, I highly recommend proceeding.

However, with my issue of judgement of control, I feel there’s more. . . What to do?

Archangel Michael says:

“Now I have this new mechanism that I would like to suggest to each and every one of you who may be caught in this tricky recalcitrant position. And I will share it with you.

“Ask for help.

“Yes, my friends. If you feel stuck, this is not about you always demonstrating Herculean strength, determination, fortitude. This is not about flexing your Divine Muscles.

“Ask for help.

“We are Legion. When you say to us, when you say to the Mother, when you say to Gabrielle, or Raphael, or Uriel, ‘I am stuck. It is too much. I am giving this to you. Help me,’ it will be over in an instant.

“If it takes a little time, it is because there is an understanding not lesson, understanding, a comprehension inside that situation that you need deeper insight into. But when you ask for help, my beloveds, it is a guarantee, we’re there.”

I call on the Mother and the Mighty Ones for help:

I invoke the Mother
and the Mighty Ones for help
for elimination with forgiveness
all futility, judgement, anxiety, doubt,
disappointment, sorrow, shame, anger, fears,
lack of self-love, lack of self-worth,
feelings, thoughts, actions.
There is no hierarchy/control in the higher realms.

Sitting still.


Feeling the sorrow.

Deeper sorrow, the tears

from this lifetime, past lifetimes.

Allowing, allowing, allowing, allowing,

seeing the scenes, apologizing, forgiving myself.

I Love you, myself
I apologize to you, myself
I forgive you, myself
I Am the Infinite and Eternal Flow
of Apologies, Forgiveness and Gratitude,
Love, Peace and Joy
I feel compassion, kindness for myself, others, LOVE

There is no such thing as mistakes.
The only mistake humans make is in judgement,
when they judge themselves or others to be less than,
when they do not see the glory of their own Divinity,
and that is just sad.

My Principal Guide